aku!

Once upon a time there was a girl in her early years ....she had to learn how to grow up living in a war that she called home... never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm hurt me.... to see the pain across my mother's face... everytime my father's fist would put her in her place hearing all the yelling... I would cry up in my room hoping it would be over soonBruises fade father, but the pain remains the same.... and I still remember how you kept me so afraid ....Strength is my mother for all the love she gave every morning ....that I wake I look back to yesterday ....And I'm OKI often wonder why I carry all this guilt... when it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built shadows stir at night through a crack in the door.... The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more" ...Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done.... To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on till the end of the time..It's not so easy to forget all the lines you left along her neck.... When I was thrown against cold stairs and every day I'm afraid to come home In fear of what... I might see there bruises fade father but the pain remains the same.... and I still remember how you kept me so afraid strength... is my mother for all the love she gave every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday..... And I'm OK I'm OK n OK...i'm not a perfect girl..my hair doesnt always stay in place n i spill things a lot..i'm pretty clumsy n sometimes i hv a broken heart..my friends n i sometimes fight n maybe some days nothing goes right..but when i thnk about it, n take a step back i remember how amazing life truly is n dat maybe..just maybe..i like to b unperfect but just luv to be me..a simple girl wit da simple life...

mari kita sama2 jayakan!!!


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time:1 sumthing pm.
date:4 july
place:as usual..roOm..

kalau la sy boleh ckp neh kt awk!

"If i have to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU."

jatuh kene hempap batu bata!!

date: 3rd of july 08
place: b1 t1 bilik 20(aduihh)
mood: not in da mood n menyampahkan!!


hurm..
so, today is 0307..my batch day..but dh lame tinggalkan zmn itu..yg dahulu2 kala..ajajajaja..
n now in college dah...ajajajajaa..n da stress is increase.hehehee..kalo plot graph neh,sure naek mendadak unt hari neh..btw, pagi clas cm biase..just nantok as usual..early da morning ar..but afta dat dh okay..heheheheh...
then..
last kuliah is bio..escape..y arr..bosan dowh..just lepak kt library n buat report chem..at last habes gakk..when i pass by da library je, sure teringat kt die..kt ctula last jumpe die.face to face. n dat time too i just noe who is da gurl..ahhhh..but life must goes on!he choose the ryte way n his life to be a sensei..hehehehehe...hurm..n i noe i will miss him a lot! n a lot so much!
hurm...pernah tak u terfikir dat ur alone even ur surrounding wit 1000 of people???dun u hv dat feeling once?n u try to scream but no one ever looking at u even glance to u..even u trying to called ur bestie also,but she nvr looking at u n maybe she did not even noewing u..arghhh!
dats wat i feel ryte now..hurm..btw, i've got a lot of works dat i hv to finish up..but i need sum1 to talk wit...n i feel theres nobody..n only u blogger..my bestie 4eva..dh byk berubah..ptg td she said dat "taknk gelak2" n "ko diam!" but afta balik dr cafe..dr jauh dh dgr suare..fuck off arr..
she only thnks bout her stress, but nvr care bout other feeling..aduh!

urm..smlm i just really miss him..ala..die dh change..dh tak cm dulu..penat la nk ckp...situation makes da decision kot..n when he really loves me, i just buat bodo..n now, tyme i really love him, he pay me back! oh gosh!!! saket!!!!haaaaa!dats y org ckp..wat goes around,comes around..hurm.
idup ini satu karma..u buat org saket, one day..he will pay u back or sum1 else do it to u double..hahaha..padan muka pencintamusika..ur going to lose him..n i swear..haaaaaaaaaaa!!
i just read his commnt on ms..haaaa! sure gle! he cheat on me!!ahahhhh..takleh trimeeee!!
cayer arrr...ramai gle girls on his page..n die pun dh lame xckp i love u kt pencintamusika..ntah la..he cheat on me la.i noe..serabot!!!!!!!
hurmm..dh la...malas nk fikir psl love2 bodo nehhh...g mampos!! ape nk jadi, jadi arrr..g mampos!!yg aku tau aku nk enjoy kt kuantan neh n study puas2..dh kuar nnt..br cari arrr..
lelaki tuh sial toll...awk,n u!!! gie mampos!!!!!

Take A Bow

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

_[Chorus]_
Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

_[Chorus]_

And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
lets here your speech ohh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

_[Chorus]_
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

Perfection in my Eyes

Perfection in my Eyes

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

- Ashley Borden -

karma~

tempat:b1 t1 bilik 20
tarikh:27 hb (esk balik..yeah!)
masa: agak2 org semua dh tido..cume bilik neh je..cm hantu!hehehe
pengunjung:ain,iera,faten..n beah..

huaaaaaaaa!(menguap)
penatnye kt matrix nehh..theres no other word that can describe bout my situation here..
i wish i could spend even 1 hour without tutorial,lecture n all da assignmnt..haaa!
btw, theres a lot of stories dat i wanna share wit..i list it..

1.esk kene antr esei title..{why do i love my father?}
cmner nehh??asal topic neh jugak jd pilihan..??sshla nk buat esei yg act xdpt nk bygkan..seriously
mmg takde point langsg..kalo ader pun..its all da common one..haaa!hate it!
ye la..i think there's no reasons dat i should love my father..hummmm..maybe i hv to thank him cz give da sperma
to my mum n puup!i'm here!..heheheheh..no such thing!lalallaalal...but i hv to be a profesional..dun look back..but just move forward...no matter wat..so, i tak pyah fikir la ape yg dah terjadi..but seriusly..its really make me!
kalo nk ctr psl kisah lame..maybe 1 blog not enough kot..next time ya??!hurmm..basicly,ayah mmg jahat la..y???
me..n myself je yg tau..:(

2.esk balik!
haaaa...psl balik esk..tak sbr act..miss home gile2!!bak kate org..homesick laa..hurmm..rindu kt reifly,tv,mak,ibu,gado ngn nurlis,nadia..paksumi..hahahah...but u noe wat, i still hv my big probs kt gsc..bosan arrr..esp.ngn epol..hate him so much laa..xpenah fhm..dulu..benci ar ctr psl die..he said dat he loves me so much la..nk kawen la..ntah ape2...always get into serius in anything la mamat nehh..plzz la..awk, i'm just playing u around je..plzz la..i cant stand wit u even a minute..inikan nk jd ur gf..plzzz la..plzz la fhm keyh??dulu, time btl2 i ske u, u mmg buat taik..u ske mek la..u antar die balik..mkn sesame laa..n even tak pernah ckp u ske i..then now..wat goes around comes around laa..its karma man..so, just get it la..then u nk wat ctr dat u saket tuh la..saket neh la..just wanna get sympathy from me..plzz..i pun kesian ngn diri i..plzzzzz!ahhhhh!! dah la i tension ngn study..then u make me sick of u laa..everytime tanye..syg sy??ahhhh...fuck off laaaa! plzzz!



so, mate dah penat..dh tak tau nk tulis ape..sambung kt umh..daaaa~

xnk kawan ngn mr.raHim...

waaa....!
td dpt my quiz maths nye result..3/10!!!
gile tol!!
adoi2..then pencintamusika dpt dende yg amat2 byk!!!
dkt 50 soklan maths..
nk mampos nye nk buat..korbankan semua waktu2 tido yg ader..
malah waktu2 sewaktu dengannye!!!
hurm..regarding bout "xnk kwn ngn mr.rahim"...hahahahaha..
sir la..xleh ckp ngn die dhh...:(
merajuk2!!!heheheheh..
smlm homesick gle.. rs cm kene tinggal sorg2..
n plus..mmg bdn amat pnat skali!
bile la msk elaun nehh.... adoi2!!
hurm..nk beli bende bsr neh!!!
hurmmmmmmmm:)
k la..
text later.../
moral value of da story!!!!!:
"marilah mengundi pada minggu ini di kmph..."
hhahahahahah

far away~

This time,
This place Misused, Mistakes
Too long too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS] I love youI've loved you all along
I miss youBeen far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'll never goStop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees,
I'll askLast chance for one last dance
'Cause with you,
I'd withstandAll of Hell to hold your handI'd give it allI'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
And you'd never goStop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
So far away So far awayFar away for far too long
So far away So far awayFar away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I neededI need to hear you say
I love you I loved you all along
And I forgive you For being away for far too long
So keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it Hold on to me,and never let me go
Keep breathing 'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it Hold on to me never let me goKeep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me goKeep breathing
Hold on to me, never let me go

mysimplerules@yahoo.com

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hehehehehe....

pengalaman!

heyya guyss~
hhaa..so, i'm going back to college tomorrow..waaaa!!!cpttnyeee...
hurm...rase cm taknak balik je..hahaha..but i hv to!!:)
where do i start ehhh??bykkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk gileee!...ok la..1stly,tarikh yg tak brape nk ingt...hehehe..pencintamusika bersame be'ah yg disayangi serta iera yg digebui<---perkataan ape nehh??...heheheeh...btw, kitorg rancang dh lame nk wat perkare bodo+ssshkan org je+ntah ape2+takde keje+penat!!!! neh dh lame...just tak taw je bile nk buat..memandgkan ade la modal sket2..jadi "dreams comes true"..hahahaha...
babak kedua!
hurmm..kuar dr college around 1 lebih bersame family arifa..bapak penuh kete..cm sardin pun ader gakk..but sumbatt je...nk wat cmne..desperate la katekan..
heeeh..then kitorg g beli ticket bus kt terminal..n yg paling sial skali..aku ilang rm50...nk mampos tol!!dh la mmg dlm kering!!!adoii2!!takpe arr...kire pikir takde rezeki la kot...
hurm..btw,kitorg jln kaki dlm keadaan yg panas tambah kering kontang n perut yg lapar nak mampos pegi ke berjaya megamall!!jalan punya jalan....jalan...jalan...pup!!sampai
terus cr kfc yg tlh diidam2 slame beberape dekat kot!
heheheheh...;)))))))
then..rancangan seterusnye...main boling??penuhhh!!!ader tournament!!tgk wayang???lambat la pulakk...karoke??penuh ngn rempit!!!..thennn...arked!!!!!



heheheh....kononla nk menang tuhh...maennn punya maen...then jam pun dh kol 5...dlm otak dok pikir...laut dan laut..hahahahah...then...tanpe segan dan silu...terus naek cab n g t.c....yeahhhh!!!
huhuhuhu....kene rm12...oraitla kot!!


babak di pantai~
heheheheh...sampai2 je terus beli sluar pendek..memandangkan semua tak bwk suar..takkan nk pakai jeans kot cik abg oiii!!heheheeheh

so, ini lah short2 yg kitorg beli...hahaha..pencintamusika yg kotak2 nehhh!!!hehehehehe...smart pe..hehehehe:) then b4 kitorg terjun dlm laut tuh...sempat la gak 3g ngan bdk2 gsc ...heheheh...jeles seyh!!!!!heheehehe...mandi2!!!!!!!!


byk lagi gmbr2 di pantai...tp malas nk upload..adoi22..btw, then kitorg jln2 kt tc tuh sampai around 10 mlm..then jaln2+mkn2+lepak2...hingga la around 2...
hahahahahah..rancangan plg gile!
kitorg yg sanggat la nantok nak mampos, amek alternatif iaitu...tido di pantai!!!
hhaahahahahah.....amek beg jd bantal..terus tido..lena dowhh...
amat gile!!!damn gile!
hahahaha..tak penah lagi..but experients dowhhh...smpai la esk pagi..then kitorg amek teksi sampai kolej...hahahahah
kitorg smpai around 11 lebih
terus tido menggantikan tilam pasir kpd tilam sebenar!!!!
heheheheheh:)
pengalaman yg tak dpt dilupekan smpai mati!!