[damnly sedih]. berbaik2 la anda.

so, today is the 4th day of syawal.tomorrow i have to go back to the college. then, after 3 weeks, is my final exam. aduh. da time move so fast.The clock will never stop detik and i felt like it was just yesterday having my first sahur this year.seriously.sgt cepat rs. tipu la if i said i want to go back to college, ye ar, after dis, i hv to freakin 100% focus on my studies. ye la, if i cant get the target, i will be kick from there. malu lah beb. hmm..i hate it when i hv to focus all da way n kene study je. i'm not dat kind of person. dats wat i hate bout my self. sgt2 pemalas! hmmm..btw, dats not da point i'm writing dis. mukadimah la katekan. heheheh.anyway, ibu ngn mak takde kt rumah. they all went to sape ntah nye rumah. i've been told dat dorg tuh kind of cm family. ntah la. its been a hundred years tak balik kg. hahahah. [hiperbola kan??] yalah, i felt like dat. tak kenal sape2 pun. hehehe.so, takde sape la msk kt rumah, then suddently one forefinger tunjuk kt aku. hahahaha. "korg biar btl??nk aku msk??" hehehehe. its toooooooooooooo pelik. heheheh. apepun, takkan nk mengalah. y not i try?? lagipun, anis, ur 18 taw!! hhehehe. then, yg klakar nye, b4 mask, i searched dat recepi on website. hahaha. kalo tak, mmg tak taw la weh. hehehe.then, wit da help of dat website, cal mak, hehehe. buat punye buat. seyes sedap!! nadia kasi 3 star n paksumi 2 and half. hehehe. okeyh la for my 1st try.hehehe. sangat bangga okeyh?!
herm, then, afta we're had our lunch, move to tv shows. semua cm takde ape pun yg best. so, bkk la drama "Hanya Aku" kt astro ria. sheila rusly, hattan, que n new str a born, Nadiya Nisa Kamaruddin yg berlakon. thumbs up ngn jari kaki skali unt dorg neh. basicly, dis movie is about penagih2 yg masuk ke rumah pengasih. [a house dat penagih2 sendiri yg nk pegi bkn dgn paksaan, kate nadia]. aku pun tak taw wujudnye dis kind of rumah. bt, ttbe cm interested nk tgk dis drama.heheh. sheila, as a sara, die wife pd sorg mamat neh [Bront Palarae] ala, mamat cm muke siam tuh. mamat neh seorg amek dadah la. then die ajak his wife ikut die amek heroin. smpaikan kene rape la, n mmg real abes sheila berlakon. hattan plak, his wife nk mintak fasakh afta knowng dat her husband is a drug addict. minah neh mmg tak kasi jumpe anak2 die.its his conflict la.for que plak, his conflict kind a blur. yg aku taw, die ank dato' n try to kill his own brother just for a drug. heheh. tuh la kot. then, for dis new actress, Nadiya Nisa Kamaruddin, mmg leh salute abes kt die. terror bwk watak teenager yg involve ngn ganja2 neh. seyes. dah la die cm indie2 sket, then, ank org kaye la, hehehe. adore her hair la. nk colour marron gak!! heheeh. sadly, die mati caz amek ganja overdose. sheila plak ader HIV. hattan n que plak lari dr umh. full of conflict! penghujung ctr pun cm tergantung. seyes nk tgk Hanya Aku 2. kalo ader.bt ctr neh pun cm ctr "sebuah ijtihad"[ btl ke spelling neh?] lantak la. sedih la dis drama. seyes. bergenang la jugak td. hahaah. huhuh. actually, its common kot all da citizen n ppl surrounding mmg anggap all penagih is a sampah masyarkt. even dah pulih pun, i bet u, mesti org laen still feel kotor ngn dis group. seyes. mmg tak leh lari la. so, to all penagih, i'm here say sory if aku pun ader anggap cmtuh. bt, i noe, bile aku fikir balik, deep down their inside, mmg nk jadi cm normal.bt dah dugaan dorg. we're as ppl sround them kene kasi dorongan n some respect to them, so, it can be their strengh to change n make somthng to negare. bile aku tulis neh, teringat plak ngn 1 show tuh..ape ntah kind2 of "ina". last raye gak. sumpah sedih. mmg sedih. sampaikan husband die mati pun takde kubur, die buang anak, jd kurus gile. aduh2. dis is life. hmmm. seyes bile aku besar, aku nk jd volunteer unt mane2 bdn kebajikan. sumpah nak! aku nk contribute sumtng for da nation!! seyessssss!!! ye la, aku pun ssh dulu, now, turn aku plak unt tlg dorg2 neh. esp single mother, anak2 penagih. hurm..my childhood life make me wat i am now. its all was vain. dh la. lupekan memories yg memenatkan itu. hahah.pjgnye mengarut neh, k la, jp lagi farid n his fwends nk beraye kt umh. afta dat nk g klcc. aduh2. to be continued...............

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