air asam jawa sgt sedap.

laalalaaala. huh. gile menyampah isi brg upu neh. kod byk yg takde. aduihhhh. btw, nk amek course pendidikan la. then nk isi pun cm sial sket. nnt ar! hurm...smlm pegi karaoke. hehehe. byk ye lagu2 yg telah dinyanyikan oleh miss anis neh. list nye:

1. sepi sekuntum mawar
2. perpisahan
3. ramalanku benar belaka
4. when ur believe
5. debunga cinta
6. tenda biru
7. i luv u.

ape ntah lagi. neh je yg aku ingt. hehehehe. amat melalak okeh! then, after abes mjd penyanyi, g tgk midnite. bedtime stori.hehehe. best la gak. btw, spjgn dat movie, sumpah cm tahan nantuk. ye arr, maybe penat kot. bkn salah dat movie taw! huhuhu. rating leh kasi is 3 kot.heheheh. btw, neh sume kt alamanda taw. yeyeyeeyey. thumbs up unt alamanda,putrajaya. huhuhu.:D then. lepas anta k.elin balik, kiotrg ngn muke2 cm tido g mkn kfc kt sri kembangan.hahahaha. kol 2 beb! sumpah nantok. lps dpt ayam, terus segar! pemakanan tidak sehat dlm pengharian diet. ampun2!!! terpakse la. lapa sgt. tyme tuh around2 kol 2. leh maafkan wahai diet ku? hehehehe:D k la, esk balik. ktn, bosannye tgk ko.!!

p/s: anis, nape ko nyanyi lagu2 sedih neh?? confius2!!!

sungguh tidak sangka.

weee. ahhhh. byk nye bunyi yg mengDatang. tidak percaya ramai pioneers2 ku adlah penulis setia. si askar satria pd tundukan blogger. hahahaha. jom2.:D

bring me a date up up on the tree?

you are always on my mind :(

penat.lelah

penat melihat. kini hanya mahu menonton.

penat saket.kini hanya mahu tenang

penat bercakap.kini hanya mahu diam

penat makan.kini hanya mahu menelan

penat mendengar.kini hanya mahu pekak

penat berbohong.kini hanya mahu benar

penat berlari.kini hanya mahu duduk

penat menjadi org laen,kini hanya mahu sendiri

penat menulis,kini hanya mahu menyanyi

penat berfikir,kini hanya kosong

penat mengharap, kini hanya mahu berdoa

penat menunggu, kini hanya mahu menjadi tuli

• DAN penat menyayangi, kini hanya MAHU membenci.

terkedip2 mata berair memandang seni luahan.

oh god! sumpah aku tabik spring kpd2 umat2 yg telah dikurniakan otak yg bernas, idea yg mujarab,tangan yg halus penselnye,dan kata2 yg seribu satu definasinya. tahniah. mungkin aku masih mentah unt memahami itu sume, namun aku punya kotak hati yg mampu tersentuh walaupun seinci. tahniah kalian. di sini aku aku postkan bbrpe yg buatkan kelopak mata tdk mampu tertutp:

" Lima kali

lima kali aku lahir

lima kali aku lelaki

lima kali aku melihat

lima kali aku katakan

kali kelima itu

kali kelima aku mati

kali kelima aku lelaki

kali kelima mereka melihat

kali kelima kamu mendengar

aku ingin

lima kali lagi cintakan kamu.."

http://amilds2.blogspot.com/

what would you say if you knewi miss those days,when we both together,walking along the line,together waiting for us jobs done and shifting shifts, of courselunch and dinner together,had a coffee or tea in the late evening,or icecreams or puffs or chocolates,fooling around like crass,send you back to your crib;well i have a crush on you,but i swore to my self not to hurt mine again as he made the same to you;but still your heart has duo-faces - cold yet sensitives,your grin smiles soften my hardness - with teeth shining as white as pearl as white burning stars,wavy hair and your fucking guts,your warm and tender skins,everytime you touch my heart;everytime you had problems or mad,you make those wrinkling forehead,babbling and irritating me,how could i forget when we passed around those paintings and gallery,those buskers and artists and books and sketches and all the talks,or when you scared to death or when your eccentricity of sudden silent;but it was those days,and right now i look into your eyes - from my bedroom windows,feels like millions miles through the airwaves and boredoms;you smile and excitedly jumping and running like always - joyously,along with Balinese pelog tunes as i sigh and smile back to you a thousand years wide;this burning heart desires you forever,but what would you say if told you so,that i'm in depth fallen into your inner smile as i dive into the deepest bluest ever gojira ocean full of whales and dolphines accompany me and waving at me and warmly welcoming me; awaiting for you to answer my screaming-hearted, gigantic plant of love and tenderness. all i wanted to say long ago wasi miss you, already;if you could hear me, if you could feel this blue-hearted of mine, i wonder.finally, all hell freezes over and heavens break loose,i squirt out a piece of my heart just for you, wherever you are, whatever you do, whenever you read this.

http://www.muntahkahak.blogspot.com/

ini bkn nya karya2 aku. aku hanya mempamerkan kekreativan mrk yg telah dikurniakan. tahniah anda.hebatkan? smbil tangan degil untuk menulis dan telinga setia mendengar "quando2 di audio".

jimmy eat world [23]

I felt for sure last night

That once we said goodbye

No one else will know these lonely dreams

No one else will know that part of me I'm still driving away

And I'm sorry every day I won't always love these selfish things

I won't always live not stopping It was my turn to decide

I knew this was our time

No one else will have me like you do

No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for?

I'm here I'm now I'm ready

Holding on tight Don't give away the end

The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems

I'll be 23 I won't always love what

I'll never have I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever

Coheed and Cambria

I'm going to ride this plane out of your life again.

I wish that I could stay. "But," you argue.

More than this, I wish you could've seen my face

In backseats staring out of the window.

I'll do anything for you,Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact'Cause I will be coming back.

In a phrase to cut these lips,I love you.

The morning will comeIn the press of every kiss

With your head upon my chest

Where I will annoy you

With every waking breath

Until you decide to wake up.I've earned through hope and faith

On the curves around your face

That I'm the one you'll hold forever.

If morning never comes for either one of us,

Then this I pray to you wherever.I'll do anything for you.

This story is for you.('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you.)

I'll do anything for you,Kill anyone for you.

So leave yourself intact'Cause I will be coming back.In a phrase to cut these lips,I love you.

The morning will comeIn the press of every kiss

With your head upon my chest

Where I will annoy you

With every waking breath

Until you decide to wake up...

Simpla Plan [save u]

Take a breath I pull myself together

Just another step until I reach the door

You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something and take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’s so many things that I want you to know

I won’t give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice It's drowning into whispers You're just skin and bones

There’s nothing left to take No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better

If only I could find the answer To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’s so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down I’ll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you

I’ll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall

it`s drowning in the whispers.

Last night. Through my mind's morning haze I can somewhat remember wat r going to happen on me in future. ntah la. its sumtng too general to talk about. theres bunch of points that hv to elaborate to. bt, lantak la. bile dgr2 lovesong, sumtimes make me sick. dats somethng like drowning in whispers. maybe i need "gud luck charmed" in dis "l" stori.hahah. mengarut. tak tahu nape after dat big case, its all turn down like hell. cm ader sumtng aku buat yg buatkan he said.."g mampos!". tak tahu la. its too confusing. maybe wat i need is explaination, bt who cares? i'm nothing. maybe theres a scar in my within, bt who cares, n who r going to noe it, n maybe no one will noe it. romeo, i hv MAJOR crush on u. "The stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun..When you read my mind".seyesly, i dun expecting more, bt at least just a simple hye can make my day bright as usual. keeping sum1 in our heart is easy, but to be in the sum1's heart are difficult. n dats "easy" makes ppl crying. its human nature. sumtimes we're up, sumtimes we're down. n itulah kite kene bersyukur for wat he hv n try to appreciate it. mcm family, ur loves one, ur teachers, ur friends, ur pet, ur plants, n all surround u b4 they leave u. n maybe now i just dying to hv his glance. i'm dying ppl. n sumtimes i pray him even more than me. ntah la. biarlah. hurm.

aku jd cmneh sbb sumtimes terlupa kt Dia kot.. in my family, pendidikan agame tak leh sestrong mane bt at least i'm thankful, at least tak lg hanyut wit all da guider n supportive family. thanks n ily yea?! aku just nk tenang, jadi umat yg bersyukur ats ape je kurniaNya, n sumtimes malu unt aku cerminkan muka kerana byknye dosa2 yg mungkin tlh menggelapkan dunia aku without i realize. n there's list dat sumtimes i hv to focus on. "Ya Allah, aku sgt2 perlukanMu dlm keadaan aku skrg. Bagi aku jalan unt aku teruskan track hidup aku ini. aku hanya mampu menghela nafas yg ko berikan dgn nada syukur ats ape yg ko kurniakan. berikan aku petunjuk dan insan yg mampu berikan senyuman pd ku stp pagi. n mampu mengucapkan selamat mlm dgn ikhlas akan menyayangiku stp pagi dan stp mase yg Kau sediakan dan mengiringku ke jalan MU..amin." what should i do? hanya berdoa kan? n from now, i just wanna focus on my destine. yerp. dats more important. n now, i just played some songs over n over. n dats songs really2 menggmbrkan wat i feel now n wat i'm thinking. here i gv u da lyrics.

love,

sofea~

stuck in my silvermind. pump it out please?

roti canai mkn tak sdp!anis, lempang kang. ko blasah 2 maseh lg ckp tak sedap??! pangg! amek ko anis.sumpah happy lps chat ngn syaza. rindu ko gile babi syaza.hurmm..btw, aku mintak maaf taw.sumpah aku mintak ampun. taw salah aku. :(
10 THINGS aku nk wat skrg:
1.nk g mandi kolam.(arifa, tlgla tunaikan permintaan aku neh)
2.nk study non-stop.(cm gile je aku dgr)
3.nk album cute is wat we aim 4 (gile best doh)
4.nk balik kl (tlg la kasi ticket)
5.nk g egypt. jumpe bintang sy.
6.nk lempang kambing. (tolong laaaa...)
7.jumpe dentist..hehehehh
8.nk tido. (anis, ko taw dh kol baper??kol 5 PAGI ko taw)
9.nk wat movie marathon..
10.nk lempang laju2 org tuh.hahahaha:D gile kejam!

hmmmm..dats it anis. no more ngengade2 menulis ye.btw, skrg neh cm around2 musim mengawan.so, ramai la yg telah berpacaran ye?! to u guys, welcome to ur new status. to rifa n ain, "jom kite berusaha lagi ye" hahhahaha. the end.

Send my soul to strangers n make them happy

Hahah. Ape punye tajuk la. Btw, I was looking 4 a better title but boom. Got dis stupid phase.hahahaha. lantak ko la labi. Lame plak tak dgr org pggl labi. Kan labu??.:D
Hahaha..hurm..afta pegi dat program, aku cm nk g travel mane2. I mean to go to some place dat aku tak penah pegi. Then ttbe wani (room8 k.yus) was invited me ikut die balik terengganu. Hahaha. Cm best. N dgn tanpe segan dan silu nye, terus YES!. Hahaha. Seyes bosan kt matrix. Basicly, pegi sane sbb nk attend a weeding of her cousin. Hahaha. Cm best pegi wedding di kg. maybe dis is da 1st tyme since I was in kl 10 years ago. N da 1st weeding kot. Yalah, bknnye ramai sibs kot kt kl. N seyesly, I dunno where they r. lantak la. Then., kt sane cm jd gadis2 kasi bunge telo. Hahaha. Cm best. Mkn lauk pengantin. Bile tgk pengantin, I was thinking, cmneh ke nnt bile kawen? N sape la lelaki dat will be my mr.ryte neh?? Takut nye. Ye la, konon2 nye org rumah la kan. Then , tlg2 dorg. Da big pengalaman was kene cuci pingan n gelas2. hahaah. Gile byk. Trs tukar baju n trs g basah2 basuh pinggan2. hahahaha. Kesian2. tapi, takpe la. Cm best act. amek2 picture la. Sure ibu tak caye kan her lazy girl neh basuh pnggan??hahaha. believe it. Heheheh. Hurm..then, as pay back, dorg bwk kitorg g pantai ape ntah. Ooops, lupe nk ckp. Dat place cal dungun.haa. pantai dungun la kot. Mkn keropok lekor, mkn ape ntah lagi. Sort of balls, ape tah.ikan la, ketam la. N thumbs up for dat food. SKE GILE! Hahahaha. Ye la. Maybe ske sbb free, bt da main reason is sgt sedap. Hehehe. Ngn surrounding tepi pantai, romantic nye….hurmmmm.. then k.ngah ngn husband die bwk g pantai. N 1st tyme tgk uitm dungun tmpt danial study. Br la tahu cmne kt sane maxis takde line. Thank god I’ve already change to celcom. I curang wit maxis ok? But maxis la. Sombong sgt. Hahah. Asyik2 takde line kt pntai timur neh. Now I noe cmne sshnye danial nk call dulu. Sory awk. Hurm..memandgkan skrg is musim tengkujuh aka winter in Malaysia, so, ombak sgt kuat n tinggi. Seyes takut. Dats y tak de org mandi pun. Just looking around n lepak2 je.
Then suddently ternmpak picture yg sgt cantek. Cpt2 amek. Haaa..some ppl said leh jd gmbr postcard.hahahah. k.ngah n abg.ngah ws lovely couple yerp? Ye la. Msg2 cm childish nye behaviour make sometimes semua org gelak. Hope dorg will last forever. Hurm amin. N here I letak dat pic keyh? Hehehe. Sile2 komen.hehehe. then, lepas hvng a good tyme kt terengganu, balik ktn balik. Hurm.. tuh je la. Penattnyee.. so, pen off.

gmbar yg tersngkut.

derma darah.sumpah buat aku pening nk mampos.anis2. seharian aku terseksa lps kasi haemoglobin aku neh.heheheh:D sumpah rs cm berbakti. mari2 kite berbakti.
















ini bkn scandL atau pun ape2 yg berkaitan ye. pejal. rindu ko la. :D

matrikulasi bersama masyarakat

Hurm. Afta exam, I was selected unt pegi dis kind of program cam jd ank angkat ngn villagers kt chini. Basicly, chini hv many part n our program was held kt chini timur. Hahaha. At 1st I was too excited nk pegi. Ye la. Takde kg, slalu kt kl je. Then tyme neh la rs cmne kt kg. hahaha. Sumpah best. My family told me dat mandi perigi la, byk nyamuk la, panas la, hitam la n totally semua nye nk menyakat me. Ahhhh. Lupekan je. Semua tuh kene laluila in ur life. Takkn nk senang je. Dis opportunityla keen grab btl2.
Then kt sane dpt la family angkat, adek bradek angkat..cm best. My sibs angkat was zureen(matrix perils), anis(matrix kuala nerang) n liza (matrix melaka). Hahah. Pelbagai keyh? Stay kt sane from 1-6hb. Sumpah lame. Byk la gak activity2..hurm. n da best part was dpt ramai sahabat2 pena di sana. Rindu ko la pejal.hahah. I mean from others matrix.jumpe balik kwn2 lame, then kwn2 baru.hahaha. sumpah best.kitorg kene jd faci unt bdk2 skolah kt sna. ( sumpah berlakon baek keyh) ntah la. Cm not deserve je nk kasi nasihat kt bdk2 sane. Ye la. Instead giving my advise to others, better cermin diri kan??hahah. btl2(versi upin n ipin).hahaha. then, kene buat kerja2 amal. My group kene cat2 tadika. Cam best gak. Hahaha. Then melawat2 kilang klapa sawit. Its smell still teringat2. gile busuk.hahha.
Kan k.yus??hurmm..pengalaman itu sgt indah kan? Ader one nyte tuh, was raining like hell. Then, sejuk like gell. Hahah. Cm nk runtuh je rumah tuh. Its half papan. Bumbung je act. Then, tgh mlm I was woke up sbb sedar that my bantal dh basah. Its not I kencing mlm. But its from above. Sedih je tgk. Cmne dis family tido kan? N maybe cmne da rest nye family.. like rumah yg 100% papan tuh. I was thinking, kesian gile. Kite yg kt kl kalo hujan lg tarik selimut bt some ppl out there was afraid in da dark n sedang ssh. Bile kene sendiri, br tahudats make me insaf sket..frankly, semua makcik2 n pakcik2 kt sane sumpah best n sporting gile. Bile pegi pasar mlm, dpt free la. Cm dismbt gile2. hurm. K.fida (aka our akak angkat) bwk kiotg g tasik chini. Ok la. Tak best mane cz hujan kan dat tyme. So, tgk2 air je la. Kan syafiq? Oops. Lupe nk gtw. Anis derma darah okeyh? Hahaha.i hv prove here. Hahahaha. Mule2 takut, sbb tgk byk gile pain yg ade. Then check2, ok lak. So, derma je la. My 1st tyme tuh.cm ok la. Hahaha. N rahsie taw. Saket act. But buat muke macho je.anis tak nanges kan??hahaha. . Ye la. Adoii2.tgk pekerja2 kt dat factory tuh..kalau la ader oompa-loompa dlm Charlie n chocolate factory tuh., tak payah org ssh2 keje. So, conclusion= pengalaman ini indah!!!hahahha. imagination sgt tinggi okeyh?hurm..so, I include some of pictures2. k la. Nk smbg next chapter.

A black sheep which called the blabbermouth.

Damn it. Now, turns to be red. Hahaha. Sumpah cm marah. Memang n memang. N for 1st tyme, I dun give damn kalo sape2 n sesiape yg terkena nk bace dis post. Mmg tak tahan okeyh. Hurm..at first, if we’re hv a serious relationship, surely we’re trying to jage dat bond to keep constant time by time. Tak flirty ngn sesape2, I maen not sesuke hati unt ckp kt org dat I’m single even ader long distance relationship. Hurm.. bile jumpe sesuatu yg baru, maybe yg dekat, n maybe yg type kite, then simply lupekan sum1 yg penah syg kite. It’s a lumrah umat. Always forgot sumthng past if get somthng better. Asyik2 tidak puas n lupe unt bersyukur. Mmg I kenal dis kind of person. Mmg kesian for dat guy but itulah die. Mmg tak kesah lagsung unt die ckp psl her mr.ryte, but every1 still hv da limit kan unt somthng?? I mean mmg meluat okeyh! Not only me. But us. She is sort of kene culture shock. Kononnye die la sorg ader bf yg paling hebat di alam semesta. N plus on, she hv the clique. All of them hv da terrible B.O ( the kind of makes want to gag). Hurm everytime asyik2 citer psl her bf. N always make somthng unt get attention.like amek 6 piils panadol just bcz bf die tak layan la, n buat2 cerita kate tak mkn la, n kalo jatuh smpai lebam, taknk ltk ubt just bcz nk tunjuk kt her bf la. Wat da f**k!! I swear to god her bf didn’t realize anything, but kiotg neh. Sgt seksa okeyh! Ntah la. She become too addicted to her bf. Seyes. Like 1st tyme dpt yg handsome kot.n maybe she doesn’t hv self-image issue, she just think dat her boyfriend is better than any1 else n dats bringing us feel uncomfortable. We’re not jealousy or wat, but its all mixed up even a single thing make us become really irritated. She expects all of us can absorb her “fairytale” story like a sponge.please. She was so into it. N dh lame semua org simpan bile fikir we’re not like to gaduh2 sane2 sini. Cukuplah tahan je kot. Of course we all noe dat die syg, but da way she express her feeling tuh, maybe too much we’re think. I’m not saying dat only me hv dat kind of feeling, but WE. Mmg tak ske. Adoii. Semua org syg kot bf msg2, but tak smpai admire bf sendiri. Everytime talk about him.i dun understand n get her point when everytime she talk bout him. For me in friendship hv to give n take. N we’re think dat only u r taking. Ntah la. Everytime, each time. N seriously, we all miss a innocent girl from country side like b4. n all da memories dat we’re shared together b4 she become like “sum1 else”. Hurm. Then, maybe after pretend like nothng happen, she cross the line. Make sum1 burst with doing think dat really make dat person pist off. Outing with her girls tak gtw ape2. lantak la dat stori. Pjg sgt. then, dat person, sent her several msg ( maybe too harsh) that maybe hurt her. Maybe all dat msg was written tyme sgt2 panas like lava. N maybe dat person poor in anger management. But ‘re everything was mixed up. Hurm. Btw, b4 gado, we’re sharing “a secret” dat mmg semua tak ptt tahu. Bout a couple yg cross line n nmpak bodo. Hurm. sape nk tahu ctr ape, tanye me sendiri okeyh?? n die dh promise n swear dh takkn gtw sape2, but then, dat nyte I was told that tuan punye bdn dh tahu n her bf nk jumpe me bout dat gossip. I was NOT making story okeyh? its from her own room8. dat girl mmg a BLABBERMOUTH. Telling her “this is just between us” is like giving her permission to spread dat secrets like wildfire. She just cant keep her mouth shut!. N plus she also telling evry1 dat I hv a case b4. I admit. Mmg ader pukul org b4, but plzz ask me, wat for I pukul die? Wat do u expects if sum1 mencuri all ur stuff about dah bertahun2 n ramai2 complaint bout dat. Tak tahan dgr kan? Lebih2 lg ur one of da high com. Then , cm semua org tahu la my black history tuh. She is just a emotional blackmailer. Lantak ko la. Aslkan itu semua tak btl, I dun gv damn!.ntah la. N maybe die ader ckp somthng bout me kt “die”. N till now he become so differently wit me. Cm ader somthng after dat case.if u bace ape yg I tulis neh, plzz gtw I ape yg jadi act. maybe I tak cantek like ape u nak, or ape u idam2 kan maybe like bidadari or wat, but trust me, I was looking a “fairygodmother” unt jadikan I ape yg u ske. N I just hv my sincere heart dat really2 crushng on u. but its not important anymore.i’m not expected anything, but plzz. Dun treat me like dis. Evn a simple hye message also already make me feel like u still save my number.biarlahhhhh anis sofea. A big fullstop for him.Maybe wat goes around comes around. Just need time. Really make me upset. But biarlah. Maybe “die” bknnye unt aku. But itu hanya lah ayat menyedapkan hati. Hahahah. Can avoid it. cm nk linger je ngn old times. Biarlah. Errrrrrr… so, dat nyte buat a small meeting dat involve all of us.n we all semua letting go ape yg tak puas hati. Hurm. at 1st, she cm ego gile. Too arrogant. N plus die mmg nk menangkan die. Lantak la. Mmg fikir die neh cm backstabber la.mcm2 la. Then, after a time, dah discuss2,cm nmpak da end of da road of dis probs. Hurmmmm.. maybe girl, forgive is not forget. To forget is to letting go.so, I just letting go la. Like “ape nk jadi, is jadilah”.n one more thngy, for him. I just pray 4 u dat ur happy 4 wat ur doing now n wat r ur going to do. N dat make me feel like letting my smile flew away dat simple.
Blessings,
sofea.

ink dat will destine my future

so, 2nd citer plak. afta bergumbira 4 raye, then its time plak unt war. try nk upload pic but failed je. so malas!nnt2 la kite letak keyh?hurmm..pspm=perang!! hahahah. sumpah poyo. ye la. i was not a smart kid dat cm relax je unt exam. hahaha. memng sengal la ko annees! hahahaha. cm around dat study week cm kind of struggle gak. cm ader gak tyme kt library, meja study..cubic. mcm2 la. then everynite keep on stay up la till i notice i've dark circles under my eyes n its looks dull.n i think sbb lacks of sleep, tgk lelebeh movies.hahahah(which one ko neh anis)??then mcm2 la pakai gel. Hahahah.. hurm..n seriously i dun put a high hope wat i'm going to get for da result. cz i noe, my effort tak cukup. last minute nye study is not good for health keyh?.maths=mati! Bio=nyesal tak bc..chem=frust. So, tak nmpak any good sign kt sini. Hahah. understood anis?? plzz take dis as pengajaran! hurm..then alhamdulillah, i still lg stay sini. hahahaha. ala, tak fikir pun nk jd ape2 yg gempak, cukup la nk dpt degree. n guess wat, i want to be a lecturer. hhahaah:D mmg gelak besar unt ko anis. but lantak la. cm best jd cikgu. cuti byk, gaji pun orite gak. so, buat pe nk ssh2??hahahah. just happy being me. but tipu la if i said dat not worry bout my future. frankly, study kt matrix mmg tak jamin ur future. unless ur really struggle on dat. mmg leh pegi jauh. but kalo biase2 je, course lelong la. hurm..then i've got **** pointer for pspm. hurm..its sign unt struggle lg for pspm 2. n my aim is getting 4flat for dis pspm 2. jijah penah ckp, "dun b afraid to do once thought impossible even if others dun think u can succeed". betul kan??

the ultimate homecoming queen.

hey there. sory 4 a long silent.quite buzy lor. wit all da exams la. ape la. adoi. so, thats it anis. dun bebel too long. nnt u lupe ape nk ckp.(menguap jap). n now i hv to paying da debt to my bff neh. hahaha. byk gile nk citer. hurmm..now i hv to squeeze my juices of ideas n memories unt include dlm my write neh. ok. 1st, ari tuh, my college ader buat jamuan hari raye la.each clas kene decorate their khemah la.bwk kueh2 la.n plus kene pakai bj raye.every1 looks glowing gile dat tyme. hahaha. very sunny day act. i think i dun need to tell everythngs wat happn in dat event.bosan! da most important was..hahahaah. sumpah segan. i've took pic wit him. hahahah. thanks to ain n yu keyh?! sumpah menolong. then, segan2 la.hahaha. shy2 la. i just glance je kt die. lantak la.it feels like i was engulfed in cloud 9. i was smitten! heheheheh. ala, its just crushing. no need to explain bout dat. its human nature kan?? hv crushing n all dat. anis, ko mmg tak malu ctr psl ur crushing! but who cares?! my blog ryte. ala, die takkn bace pun. its just normal feeling. guess wat, i was fall in love wit my history teacher tyme i was form 3.hahaha. n sumpah xmalu, his wife plak was my mathematics teacher. hahahah. dats feeling buatkan me unt eager lagi 4 study history. thats my "secret recipe" when getting an A's for da whole year smpai la spm. mmg ever1 ckp history itu bosan. "anis, cmne la ko leh ske sejeq??" hahahaha. was a popular quest unt me. i jwb.."sbb cikgu rid".haha. kan pioneer??hahahahah.so dat he will notice me in his class.ahhahaah. ala, lame2 dats feeling hilang je la. cm tuh la me now.hahahaha:D only for now je. just need sum1 dat can bringing out my smile from morning to nyte.hahah. dats him! tak kesah die tahu ke tak, or he sedar or not, or even worstly, die layan ke tak, but just ternmpak die pun dh ckp. kan paah n ain? hehehehe:D n exactly, he was my jimmy choo n my ticket to paris n rom. hahaha:D. cm kenal je dat phrase? k la, smbg 4 da next story. oopsss..lupe plak. dat pic kt ats neh was taken by sape ntah. i dun now y i looks cm cantek sket in dat pic. hahaha. ssp n stf.huahuahua:D

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sumpah aku happy 10.10.08
seyes!!!
kpd sumer yg taw.
hehehehehe:D

surat unt bulan

bulan,
perasaan itu amat memenatkan.
ye.berulang2 ia muncul, namun ia kembali tenggelam.namun, sy ttp teguh unt menepis dan sungguh. sy hanya tipu diri sendiri. semakin hari, sy hanya mkn rindu kt awk.makin dan semakin sy buang nya jauh2, makin sy terasa.sy tak tahu kenapa.mungkin sdah byk memori sy kt awk,yg awk sungguh tamak unt menyimpan nye.beraninya awk pergi, dan noktah untuk tdak kembali.awk, syg sy mungkin tak luntur, namun kelogikan unt bersama tidak mungkin.biarlah sy simpan rasa itu jauh2 dlm sudut hati, biarkan ia hilang.hilang smpai sy lupa sapa awk.hujan air mata hanyalah sekecil tapak tgn, namun itu adlah air emas.sbb awk lah, yg mampu buat hati sy jd sepihan2 yg mungkin sy fikir jauh dibawa angin. sumpah.perasaan hati mmg rindu, dan ia sgt suci seperti darah si mahsuri,ia sgt jernih seperti sang nil,dan sgt tulus sprti cinta hawa dan adam.apekan daya, ia hanya mampu diluahkan melalui teori2 di kepala sy. itu yang memenatkan. percuma sy katakan, kenapa awk buat sy gembira sdgkan awk tahu itu hanya di ats pentas opera? kenapa ciptakan ikrar sdgkan awk tahu sy berpegang pd janji? kenapa awk membuatkan sy syg kt awk sdgkan awk tahu sy rapuh apabile awk tiada? byk nye persoalan yg sy nkkn jawapan. awk biarkan sy belayar tanpa sauh dan awk menghanyutkan sy dlm dunia tiga bermuda awk, namun syukur, dia masih sygkan sy. awk kejam.awk kejam. sekejam serigala yg melapah si rusa yg lemah. itu awk!sepi.bisiku pd bulan,kembalikan temanku,kekasihku,syurgaku,. tanpa nya, mlm menemaniku.sepi memeluku. jgn biar mlm menjadi siang,biar alam ini kelam dan biar ia sepi sepertiku...sesungguhnya biarlah sekejap sy bermimpi untuk menjdi sindarella di alam fantasi kerna sy tahu, matahari akan mengejutku dr mimpi2 yg akhirnya akan kembali ke bumi yg nyata. "Benarlah kata..Benarlah kata pepatah..Yang mengatakan cinta itu sememangnya buta..Kerana akal..Kerana akal yang berfikir..Bukan hati, yang merasa tanpa rasional..".mitos2 sy hanyalah tinggal kenangan dan menjadi sebuah lagenda yg akan sy sematkan dlm buku hikayat hidup sy. mungkin tidak seagung sebuah cinta taj mahal dr shah jehan kpd mumtaznya, namun, biarlah. ia ttp memori.
dengan jln ringkas, sy mengambil perasaan unt mengintai bintang di sebalik pelangi di jendela. stp hari sy menglutsinarkan diri unt melihatnye, bercakap, berjalan, dan segala perbuatan nya walaupun teguh pendirian sy yg awk takkan sy capai. sbb awk sgt tinggi. sgt tinggi sehingga sekecil lalang ini awk tak nmpak. walaupun awk jatuh, namun tak terdaya sy untk menyambut.sy tahu, ramai berucap, tanpa keberanian, angan2 takkan menjdi nyata, sy mengaku. sy hanya takut tersalah org.walaupun sekilas sy mmberikan cahaya, namun sy sedar, cahaya bintang laen yg awk akan perlu. namun, perasaan itu yg mmbuatkan sy senyum setiap hari yg mendatang. dan dengan itu, terima kasih. terima kasih. tdak pernah mengimpikan unt smpai ke bintang, cukup lah sekadar berhenti di tgh jalan. dan itu sudah cukup mmbuatkan sy gembira.skali lagi, terima kasih.

mungkin perasaan yg tdak penah lekang ini tidak akan pergi dr pertama kali sy melihat awk. pelbagai rintihan hati sy kawal dan semakin hari, semakin memori sy kepada awk smkn kuat. walaupun tdk bertemu, namun raut wajah tdk pernah sy lupa.mana mungkin sy bertemu kembali hanya untuk luahkan selamat tinggal? percaya kpd takdir kunci kepda perkenalan kembali dgn awk.awk takkan fhm dengan kata2 sy, tp, tak kesah la. apa guna diari kalo tdak meluahkan? awk dtg seperti kereta kuda unt cinderella hanya unt satu mlm itu sahaja. dan itu mampu buatkan gembira kembali bermaksud dlm kamus hidup sy.terima kasih. tak penah fikir unt labu menjdi kereta kuda, pari2 mmberikan benang sutera, tikus menjadi teman, cukup lah sekadr sepsang rama2 berterbangan seiring. tipulah sy tdak jatuh sbb kesucian hati awk, tapi sedar ia hanya untk hati yg lebih berhak.dan dengan itu, sy terima.walaupun sepahit peria,semasam cuka, tapi ia ttp dpt ditelan kan? kalo tdak kenapa ia wujud hanyalah untk dibuang? tidak logik.bagaimanapun. terima kaseh apa yg digelar shabat. shbt2 pena,dan shabat2 jiwa.

pertalian darah yg wujud dengan seorg apa yg digelar anak dan ayah hanyalah sebagai permainan? adkah ia benar? kerana filem yg maseh aku lakonkan ini, itulah la skrip nya. dan makin aku meningkat dewasa, skrip itu semakin ssh untuk aku fhm. sygkah si ayah kepda si anak? walaupn si anak merintih untk seekor cacing, namun si ayh mmberikan cuka. itukah jalan cerita dunia? sudah lama mmberikan duka, dan perasaan benci sy tdak dpt sy gmbrkan besarnya sebesar syurga ke tujuh, tp tipulah kalo sy ujar, tdak rindu untk memanggil ayah. namun, layakkah si burung tua itu??layakkah dipanggil ayah kerna zaman knk2 yg seharuskan menjdi titik kepada seekor anak burung unt belajar berjalan dan terbng bebas dgn bantuan, ttp ia lakukan dgn keajaiban seorg diri. selepas si tua terbang jauh meninggalkan si anak seorg diri, layakkah die kembali kepd sarang? dengan segala pujuk rayu dan sumpah palsu, sumpah sy katakan..sy benci ayah!!!

dan akhirnya, semakin jauh perjalanan si musafir merentas pdg pasir, semakin lembut pasirnya unt dipijak. semakin jauh si pengembara merentas hutan, semakin gelap akan permandangannya. namun, mungkin di sebalik2 itu, ada air menanti si musafir, dan ada cahaya sang mentari menunggu di hjg jln. dan kini aku makin nmpak sinarnya. namun aku takut itu hanya lah fatamogana yg terlalu awal untuk aku tafsirkan dan aku takut tersalh org.apa yg sy kejar tak dpat, yg hampir tercicir. itulah kimianya. kebenaran nya walaupun ternyata, ia mmg indah. berdoa aku, supaya ia adlah benar.
sekian bulan, kirimkan surat ini kepada mereka2 yg sy ertikan ini. supaya mrk2 fhm akan sy wujud.

anissofea.
si tintajiwa.

[damnly sedih]. berbaik2 la anda.

so, today is the 4th day of syawal.tomorrow i have to go back to the college. then, after 3 weeks, is my final exam. aduh. da time move so fast.The clock will never stop detik and i felt like it was just yesterday having my first sahur this year.seriously.sgt cepat rs. tipu la if i said i want to go back to college, ye ar, after dis, i hv to freakin 100% focus on my studies. ye la, if i cant get the target, i will be kick from there. malu lah beb. hmm..i hate it when i hv to focus all da way n kene study je. i'm not dat kind of person. dats wat i hate bout my self. sgt2 pemalas! hmmm..btw, dats not da point i'm writing dis. mukadimah la katekan. heheheh.anyway, ibu ngn mak takde kt rumah. they all went to sape ntah nye rumah. i've been told dat dorg tuh kind of cm family. ntah la. its been a hundred years tak balik kg. hahahah. [hiperbola kan??] yalah, i felt like dat. tak kenal sape2 pun. hehehe.so, takde sape la msk kt rumah, then suddently one forefinger tunjuk kt aku. hahahaha. "korg biar btl??nk aku msk??" hehehehe. its toooooooooooooo pelik. heheheh. apepun, takkan nk mengalah. y not i try?? lagipun, anis, ur 18 taw!! hhehehe. then, yg klakar nye, b4 mask, i searched dat recepi on website. hahaha. kalo tak, mmg tak taw la weh. hehehe.then, wit da help of dat website, cal mak, hehehe. buat punye buat. seyes sedap!! nadia kasi 3 star n paksumi 2 and half. hehehe. okeyh la for my 1st try.hehehe. sangat bangga okeyh?!
herm, then, afta we're had our lunch, move to tv shows. semua cm takde ape pun yg best. so, bkk la drama "Hanya Aku" kt astro ria. sheila rusly, hattan, que n new str a born, Nadiya Nisa Kamaruddin yg berlakon. thumbs up ngn jari kaki skali unt dorg neh. basicly, dis movie is about penagih2 yg masuk ke rumah pengasih. [a house dat penagih2 sendiri yg nk pegi bkn dgn paksaan, kate nadia]. aku pun tak taw wujudnye dis kind of rumah. bt, ttbe cm interested nk tgk dis drama.heheh. sheila, as a sara, die wife pd sorg mamat neh [Bront Palarae] ala, mamat cm muke siam tuh. mamat neh seorg amek dadah la. then die ajak his wife ikut die amek heroin. smpaikan kene rape la, n mmg real abes sheila berlakon. hattan plak, his wife nk mintak fasakh afta knowng dat her husband is a drug addict. minah neh mmg tak kasi jumpe anak2 die.its his conflict la.for que plak, his conflict kind a blur. yg aku taw, die ank dato' n try to kill his own brother just for a drug. heheh. tuh la kot. then, for dis new actress, Nadiya Nisa Kamaruddin, mmg leh salute abes kt die. terror bwk watak teenager yg involve ngn ganja2 neh. seyes. dah la die cm indie2 sket, then, ank org kaye la, hehehe. adore her hair la. nk colour marron gak!! heheeh. sadly, die mati caz amek ganja overdose. sheila plak ader HIV. hattan n que plak lari dr umh. full of conflict! penghujung ctr pun cm tergantung. seyes nk tgk Hanya Aku 2. kalo ader.bt ctr neh pun cm ctr "sebuah ijtihad"[ btl ke spelling neh?] lantak la. sedih la dis drama. seyes. bergenang la jugak td. hahaah. huhuh. actually, its common kot all da citizen n ppl surrounding mmg anggap all penagih is a sampah masyarkt. even dah pulih pun, i bet u, mesti org laen still feel kotor ngn dis group. seyes. mmg tak leh lari la. so, to all penagih, i'm here say sory if aku pun ader anggap cmtuh. bt, i noe, bile aku fikir balik, deep down their inside, mmg nk jadi cm normal.bt dah dugaan dorg. we're as ppl sround them kene kasi dorongan n some respect to them, so, it can be their strengh to change n make somthng to negare. bile aku tulis neh, teringat plak ngn 1 show tuh..ape ntah kind2 of "ina". last raye gak. sumpah sedih. mmg sedih. sampaikan husband die mati pun takde kubur, die buang anak, jd kurus gile. aduh2. dis is life. hmmm. seyes bile aku besar, aku nk jd volunteer unt mane2 bdn kebajikan. sumpah nak! aku nk contribute sumtng for da nation!! seyessssss!!! ye la, aku pun ssh dulu, now, turn aku plak unt tlg dorg2 neh. esp single mother, anak2 penagih. hurm..my childhood life make me wat i am now. its all was vain. dh la. lupekan memories yg memenatkan itu. hahah.pjgnye mengarut neh, k la, jp lagi farid n his fwends nk beraye kt umh. afta dat nk g klcc. aduh2. to be continued...............

tertarik ngn dis picture from joe.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/shutter-rebels/

petikan dr "hanya aku"......

"walaupun dugaan kite berbeza, namun, kita semua dtg dari arah yg sama"

chord ttng seseorg. seyes ske lagu neh!!

F#m D E A

Teruntukmu hatiku, ingin ku bersuara

F#m D E A

Merangkai semua tanya, imaji yang terlintas

Bm C# C#m F#m

Berjalan pada satu Tanya slalu menggangguku

D E A

Seseorang itukah dirimu kasih

F#m D E A

Kepada yang tercinta inginku mengeluh

F#m D E A

Semua resah di diri mencari jawab pasti

Bm C# C#m F#m

Akankah seseorang yang diinginkan kan hadir

D E A

Raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

Reff :

Bm E F#m

Cinta hanyalah cinta, hidup dan mati untukmu

Bm C# F#m

Mungkinkah semua Tanya kau yang jawab

Bm E F#m

Dan tentang seseorang itu pula dirimu

Bm C# F#m

Ku bersumpah akan mencinta

mr.ryte.mr.future

herm. n now at 5 am somthng. i just cant sleep. dunno wat happen act. maybe after i tell my cerita sedih to sum1 just now, make me feel uncomfortable nk tido. apekah ini? shit! hmm..tgk2 blog2 org laen, dgr ape mrk kate dan ape pandangan merk. gosh! ayat ku bknnye unt dijual. dan my feelings also not for sale keyh? kdg2 rs dh lupekan die, bt i noe, i was lying to myself. n sumtimes dat feeling mengaburi my heart. nvr in a true world. maybe its just angan2. n yes rifa, i need sum1 unt lupekan die. bt, i'm not strong enough taw. rifa, ko taw kan i'm always complaint itu, ini bout my relationship matter, bt mmg betul. it was so pathetic. :(
even now dah lame single bt y i still hv dat kind of feeling? feeling to be loved, to be owned, n maybe to be respect by sum1 dat i can called love. i just need sum1 to talk to, need sum1 to gv all out my thinkings, all my kutuk2, n maybe some my crazy ideas. n when i found sum1 dat really2 make me suit wit, he hv sum1 else. maybe i was too late, or maybe i was not good enough to be his girl. yeah ryte. he deserve sum1 better. btw rifa, i really miss u. mau borak2 bodo ngn ko. seyes. hmmm..i hope la someday, i can found my mr.right @ my mr.future dat can make me feel da sunshine again without hating myself bcz of cannot hate sum1 dat really2 make my heart into pieces.seyes. nak sgt jumpe.hmm.. then, tgh buat flash yg ttbe i've lost my idea, ahahha. seyes aku maen blasah je flash neh! hehehhe. btw, hati itu mmg lembut. sgt lembut unt aku. errrrrrrrrrr.....[in blank]..to be continued.......




sofea.

eagle eye [seyes best!!]

ye. kami gadis bertige di hari raye. hahaha, dis year theme ku is kampung ku di klcc [raye2008]. cewahhh22!!bosan ku kt klcc. hehehe. btw, 1st raye, mule2 niat hati nk g solat raye amatlah tinggi menggunung!!! ye ar, bgn2, cpt2 siap then dh ready. while tunggu paksumi [my uncle] siap2 ngn jubah mekah nye, [pak bilal ye], ttbe peut saket. seyes nye saket. g la b***k dulu. adodoi!! gile la lame. aku punya lah hilang semngt, so, punah la hrpn aku nk maintain every year solat raye. ampunn2 allah!! huhuhu. then afta dat, kene plak antar ibu g keje. adududdui!! ibu keje on 1st raye. lagi la sedih. tp takpe, double paid kot!! heheeh. then, rancang punye rancang, kol 4.30, tgk movie senario kt ioi. hahahah [secare free okeyh?] huhuhu. gile BOSAN! seyes aku ngn mak tido. semua lawak dlm dat movie tak jadi. bg aku, dis movie by senario la yg plg tak jadi. maybe takde apek kot. semua lawak bodo je. but tyme part fauziah nawi buat drift, br la aku rs cm nk gelak sket. huhuhuh. apepun, aku kasi 3 bintang je kt dis movie. huhuhu. then, balik, g klcc lgi. g amek ibu.heheheh. lagi la maksimanye bosan. huhuhu. balik2 umh, trtido..itulah 1st raye aku. -2nd raye- tak byk, g klcc, then g tgk eagle eye. seyes aku ckp..gile BEST!!!! nk mampos nye BEST!! [thumbs up moch ckp]..huhuhu. gile best. mmg dh agak dh..movie neh pun dpt [free]..gile best kan raye aku???heheheh. kebetulan plak, aku msg moch ckp aku tgh tgk eagle eye, die reply, die pun dlm movie tgh tgk. mmg kebetulan ye?? hehehhe.
gle. hurmm..takde hati lngsng nk tgk kami. cm bosan! huhuhu. k la..smbg later. nk wat flash.

[anissofea]

ilham di mlm raye.

aku.ape yg aku rase, ape yg aku lihat dan ape yg aku fikir, tidak semestinya betul.dan kdg2 tidak semestinya salah.jadi, aku hanya ske buat perkara ape yg buat aku happy.salah atau betul, aku ttp happy. itu buatkan aku puas.aha.aku ske lagu,irama,melodi, ttp tidak tahu menyanyi, karna aku taw suare ku seiras katak, aku tak pandai mengarang ape2 yg puitis walaupun gitar adalah teman baekku, kerna bg aku, apa2 yg lahir dr hati yg ikhlas itu adlah seni dan indah. jadi, tak perlu artistic unt meluahkan sesuatu dengan indah.aku ske wayang gmbr, namun aku tak pandai berlakon dan berdialog. aku ske computer, namun ku buta i.t.pendirian ku tidaklah seteguh tugu dan sekuat badang, namun bagiku, pendirianku,pemikiranku hanya lah selembut sutera dan itulah kelemahan ku.aku seorg yg sukar mmpamerkan sayang dan cintaku,dan apabila aku ckp aku syg dan aku cinta kpd org itu, jd, itu adlh benar2 ikhlas drku smpai mati. aku adlh seorg yg sungguh mementingkan kesimplelan. bgku, hidup ini sdh ckp complicated, jd aku memilih unt berkesimplelan. selalu melakukan keje gile2,keje bodo, kerna aku ske!haha. apabila sedih, keliru atau pun berduka, sepi dan diam adlh ubt ku.gelak adlh penawarku.amat sukar menangis, kerna air mataku sudah kekeringan alasan untuk mengalir disebbkan zaman kanak2 ku..aku adlh seorg yg slalu mmbuat ssuatu tanpa memikirkan akibat, dn akhirnya menyesal.sgt bodoh!.aku sedar adek2 aku amatlah2 jelita dan aku TIDAK,aku tidak kisah! dan penah aku terfikir, adakah aku anak buangan? namun, DIA mmberikan jwpannya, hidup bknlah berdasarkan rupa paras, namun berdasarkan hati.amat syg akn sahabat2.jadi, ironi hidupku hanyalah belatar belakangkan seni ku.sekian, terima kaseh.ahh.merepek je aku neh!

selamat hari raye everybody!!!

so, esk dh nk raye.aduh2. rs cm kejap je kan?? tgk2 aku dh 18. wah2. dh besar ye encek??

btw, di sini aku nk ucapkan "SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN" kepade2 org2 neh:

-semua muslimin dan muslimat kt ats muka bumi neh.

-family2 aku. sape2 la yg ade kaitan darah ngn aku. (jenis b..heheheh)

-kwn2 aku dr skolah rendah smpai menengah.

-convent father barre

-sk.pinang tunggal

-st. annes convent

-sk. labu

-sk.pandan

-sekolah seri puteri

-kwn2 matric ku syg. pahang matriculation batch 08/09

-cikgu2 aku yg penah ajr aku smpai aku pandai. cewah!

-girlfriend n boyfriend sedare2 aku. ( aku je takde) hehehe.

-makcik2 cleaner yg penah aku nmpak.

-pakcik2 kebun kt skolah2 aku.

-makcik2 kantin.

-kwn baek aku. si labi sengal.

-kwn2 yg tetibe menjadi kwn2 aku. (ala, byk sgt la plak)

-boyfriend2 aku! heheheheh(neh list paling pjg)huhuhu

-girlfriends2 aku.

-musuh2 aku. (minta ampun erk) (jom baek2 jom) hehehehe.

-mark ruffalo (even ko tak smbut, tp nk wish gak)

-bdk2 friendster ngn myspace aku.

-bdk2 keje.(petronas ngn gsc)

-sape2 yg bc blog neh secare diam2. heheheh

- lastly, sapeyg yg kenal aku.

disini, aku nk minta maaf byk2. halalkan makan minum aku. ampun2 kalo ader terase mane2 ke. ssghnye aku neh manusia unperfect. so, ampun2 ye?! o-0...hehehehe..:D

may allah bless u all always n doakan unt aku keyh?

salam aidilfitri,

anissofeamohamed.

inteprem gmbr jap.

nh artis filipine yg aku jumpe dlm lrt.hhuhu. artis tuh!!!

neh plak tukang kebun aku, and bibik aku dr indon.

neh aku candid artis neh! aduh2!!

rifa!!!!

kalo nk wat cm ko wat lehhhhhhhhhhhhh????
hahaha:D

keserabaian itu unik.

hurm. so, come to 2nd chapter.

now ctr psl puase kt kolej. ahahah. amat menyedihkan okeyh. but menggembirakan.

cewah2. nk last2 week kt kolej, seyes semua kering. then semua tong2( dlm bm nye share2 ) duet. ye la, as a family kan. hehehe. then smpaikan sehari rm1 je spend. hahaha. amat klaka. btw, ader one day tuh, aku, ain, beah ngn paah g bazar. around2 kol 5 somethng. pegi2, round2 bazar, seyes, takde mknn dah. aduh. ape nk mkn neh. then ttber tercetus idea nk g lepak kuantan. hahaha. dh la tyme tuh dh lewat ptg dah. seyes bodoh. hehehehe. then ain, aku, ngn beah setuju. hahaha. paah je tak nk cz esk nye die nk kuar ngn exschoolamte die. huhuu. balik2 bilik, siap2..solat..tak sempat mandi pun. trs g guard. key in matrix number then trs je jln. hahahaah. mmg takde bus. naseb baek la ader sorg neh, not sure sape. but agak2 lecturer kot. offer tumpang g kuantan. die pun otw balik umh. then dlm keadaan terdesak, ikut la jgak. hehehe. kitorg g mega. mkn kfc dulu. tyme tuh seyes kering gak. but geram psl kt bazar takde mknn, pegi la gak! hehehe. amat serabai okeyh? heheh. then afta dat, ain g salon.wahh2. buat rmbut beb! hehehehe. moch pun dtg. hehehehe. (beah ko taw kan aku dh confess sumtng?)..ini hal rahsie. cewah! then borak2 bodo ngn die, ssghnye die ngn aku sengal. wahai si labu labi! heheheeh. then, kiotg tgk mid nyte movie. hahahah. da strangers. takde motif but terkejut je lebih. nk kene sepak sape director die. cis! siap beah terjerit lagi. wah2. amat terkejut. b4 tunggu movie, g melalak jap. seyes! amat tidak sopan. org terawekh, kiotg melalak. hahahaha. ( bdk2 jgn ikut kakak2 ngok ini bertige)..yg klaka nye, beah salah tekan number lagu. seyes kuar lagu jamal. ntah ape ntah. kitorg pun maen blasah nyanyi azura. hahahah. blasah2 je. tergelak2 beb! skali lagi, serabai itu unik! hermmm.. then, g tc. cm biase. jln2, gosip2. then lepak ats pasir smbil tgk bulan dan bintang. amat indah. hehehehe. mlm yg memenatkan disebabkan takde mknn kt bazar. bengong! herm..td br tgk surat offer medic kt egypt. hurm..3 university offer. fly 10 oct. confius nk pegi ke tak! aduh2!!!lantak laaa...

hidup ini memang palat. tetapi esk masih ade.

mode: raye oh raye.
so, smlm dh smpai kl from kuantan pkol 11 lebeh ngn beah. hahah. terkejut gak apek ade skali dlm bus.(my classmate)..heheeh. smlm from kolej, uncle lan dtg n amek us (me, iera n beah) around2 kol 5. then laju ke ktn. ye ar. bus iera on 6.30 ke temerloh.hehehe. then naseb baek sempat lps uncle buat grand prix. cewah! hehehe. thanks uncle lan! jumpe ramai la bdk2 kolej kt terminal. as usual la kalo balik.heheh. then, moch dtg. dgn niat unt dibelanje oleh aku! siot tol! heheheheh.moch, amek ko..dush2!!! heheheh. tp aku ikhlas beb. thanks for da coming. really2 enjoy bile borak2 ngn ko labi!! heheheeh.then, moch pun dpt my kad raye handmade beb!! tak penah aku seberiyer itu. ko amat bertuah labi! cewah2. lps mkn2, hujan lebat gle. then g la tunggu bus. seyes. sgt sejuk okeyh. nh la 1st tyme balik raye naek bus. ramai gle org. ye ar, semua pakat nk balik kg cuti raye. hehehe. dh la naek bus mlm. mmg feel abes. best kan beah?? hehehe. sejuk2, dlm bus, mkn burger, dgr lagu raye. hehehehe. selamat hari raye ppl! hehehe. finish 1 chapter.....

pembedahan tikus jahat by mad doc.

ye2. pembedahan tikus by doc2 yg jahat. ari tuh, brape ntah aribulan, all of us 1h01 ade buat expriment. one of da chapter dlm silibus bio la. hehe. at 1st, tyme ckgu demo, seyes, amat geli okeyh?! mule2, kene belah badan die, then tarik semua organ2 dlm tikus neh. shit! amat busuk! aduh2. dh la my partner takut tgk darah. aduh2. so, me la yg kene jd mad doc neh? hahaha. hmm.. whatever pun, kene wat gak. heheh. tyme happy2 belah sane, belah sini, kan2 paah??hehehe. shit. terpotong blood vessel. dush. darah memancut.seyes geli! aduh2. thank god pakai glove n mask. heheheh. seyes. pengalaman itu best! heheheh...

be continued to the next chapter.

cerita oh cerita.

masa: around2 2.30 ptg..buang2!
place: lab comp. tuh internet laju.wah!
mood: raye mode plzz.
kerja: bertimbun2.
matlamat: kene lukis unt flash neh. aduh2!!

ehheeheh. wahh.. 1 hari je nk balik kl. at first, mule2 plan nk raye kelantan. but last minute, kene informed yg ibu keje on da 1st raye. aduh2. takpe la. dah biase. so, pe lagi dis year. movie la on da 1st syawal! yeah2!!!heheeheh. herm..btw, for penghulu information, byk gile citer2 yg menarek ya amat as a student kt cni. heheheh. seyes2!! but then, internet lembap. so, ape2 pun nk buat balik umh. dun worry.bile jejak je kaki kt umh, i'll send u my email.
hhehehe. nmpak nye kampungnekmat amat maju okeyh??
herm..kepale berserabut la. byk nye masalah. i mean, its not too easy as a student keyh? aduh2.
have to plan my life back.heh(mengeluh).
bout primadona kg nye text, terharu beb! dear bie, ur not alone keyh??we're as da nekmat's folks always wit u. hehehe. once a gscrian, always a gscrian. heheeh. luv u muah!
herm..tak best nye tak dpt join buka puasa unt kg.nekmat. ala..hermmm..nak gak!!!
k la...to be continued.....




fea~

dis is wat we called stylish!

place: ats katil.

time: almost 2

mood: sempurna.

song:apa saja.kru.

herm..sedih plak dgr lagu neh. its so sweet la.hehheeh.heh! angan2 itu indah la.herm. smlm usha2 phone dlm utopia ain, wahh. tertarik kt 1 phone neh. w980i.wah2. amat ske okayh. btw, my bufday is 9th january. so, plzz..hadiahkan me dis phone.hehhe. plz2 santa claus. i promise u. i'll be a good kid dis year.heheh.herm. rs2 smlm, da whole day my phone tak berbunyi. yg bunyi tyme nado ckp"i'm using my new number" n teman baek.hotlink dgn iklannye yg ntah ape2 itu.hahaah. amat sedih okeyh.ahh. satu lagi miscal ira yg sengaje buat aku hapy sket.hahahah. amat klaka. aku tgk phone org laen, penuh je inbox. aduh2. herm. cayer atau tak, seminggu aku hanye abeskan rm3 je kedit.hahaha. gile klaka.lantaklah.now tgk cite sepi.aduh2.lagi lah menyentuh jiwa.."mlm menemani ku, siang mendengarku..."lalallaal. amat sedih okeyh?!.td check fs, asl ko view aku lagi??sial tol la. aduh2. mau je aku buang ko. tp kejam la plak.aduh2.sshnye bile ade prasaan crush neh. n i still in blur cmne nk wat 1st move. sape2 ader idea??herm2. byk nye keje. menimbun2. btw, skrg tgh dlm conflict shabat2. aduh. bosan tol idup! ye. amat bosan.

org ini bosan,

anis.

ini hanya lah tentang seseorng.

shit. dis is my 2nd tyme write dis. yg 1st one hilang cmtuh je. hahaha. nmpak sgt kene tulis lg neh. heh! hari ini catat sejarah beb. dh berbelas hari tak mkn nasi, but today, termakan juge. sbb bile pegi bazar ptg td, mmg tak ader ape. roti john, ramai sgt. n then semua kdai mknn dh abes. ye la. pegi pun dh around 6. aduh. naseb baek kt surau today ade cam jamuan. everybody get free nasi n lauk daging. maybe sbb nuzul quran today. alhamdullilah. terpakse la jgk mkn nasi. tak effect kot 1 day mkn nasi. insyaallah. dear blog, td maen2 permainan yg dlm kuch2 hota hai. i mean game cm neh. kite sebut one word, then kwn kite sbt ape2 je yg terlintas kt kplae otak die. cam hujan:best!, moch:botak!. tido:sedap. star:errrrr...ntah! hehehe. cm tuh la aku maen ngn beah. then beli aku sbt roti..die trs.."john"..herm.. sian die. seyesly, kalo aku jd die, mmg sedih. can u imagine, when da tyme u feel like u fall in luv wit dis guy, even he hv nothing bt da way he are make u feel like u hv everythng in dis world n he can stop ur tyme..ttbe nk tunang!oh gosh! mmg ssh nk face it. so, kpd readers, ssape taw mohamad anis @ john, plzz contact me. plzz.. maybe i want to give a biggest gift to my bestie. hermmm..btw be'..aku taw ape ko nk jwb tyme aku sbt name minah tuh. hahahah. phm2.hehehehe:D..hurm.yes. i crush on sum1. seyesly, nk die taw but u noe wat, kalo nmpak die even 2 batu, dh kecut perut. tak taw nk wat ape. maybe sbb 5 years surround wit girls, make me now. sgt malu okayh. nak die taw..but at da same tyme malu nk approach dulu. any idea guys?..herm.. act kdg2 terfikir, mmg amat gle unt gapai ssuatu yg mmg jauh nk ku pgg, but cukuplah sekadar menceriakan aku hari ini, esk, dan seterusnya.mmg betul "tanpa keberanian, impian takkan menjadi nyata..n tanpa angan2, kenyataan takkan menjadi nyta". but am i dat brave to tell him dat i like him??oh gosh!! ssh nye bile cmneh!heheheh. errr..tak sbrnye nk raye..seyes. herm..but at da same tyme takut gak..sbb exam just around da corner. so, exam first!!huahuahua. takut tak lepas la. btw, on 26hb neh, any 1 out there nk berbuka puase ngn aku, n beah..contact me..hahah. amat promote okeyh!hehehehe. selamat datang persaaan:crush! ye betul: sy suke seseorg. dan ini adalah ttng seseorg!

putih.hitam hidup.

ke arah mane?
omg.
kdg2 kite rs kite dh lupekan die, but nape still sebut name die?
kdg2 rs dh ckp kuat unt face up all dis, bt we're noe, we're just tipu diri sendiri unt tenangkan hati padahal tak kuat mane pun. still can crying like hell.
kdg2 rs cam dh tak perlukan die, bt nape still keep lagi number die?
kdg2 rs bersalah sgt kt org tuh, bt nape ssh sgt nak minta maaf? even dh mintak maaf pun, nape ssh sgt nk maafkan??
kdg2 rs cm nk nanges je, bt nape still tahan??


haaaaa...byk nye kdg2. rs cm nk mati pun ader.
just ngn kwn2 je leh buat aku hidup semula.
thanks kwn2. :D

in vain. swear to god, i cant handle it.

dear god,
mmg ssh nye hari neh!
rs nak mati pun ader. wit all da pressure along da fucking damnn day!
its too heavy to hold on.
its too burden!
kalo la cikgu leh bace neh,
sy mmg tak leh get through ngn ape yg ckgu ajar.
u so pushing people. u never guide me. only u noe, dat yelling2 like u was teach a deaf ppl.
sy boleh catch up, but then its slowly nak came out.
yg u tau, keep on pushing2 n keep me under the pressure.
u noe wat, da whole clas was toooooooooo scared to u, n believe me, they nvr enjoy their days in ur clas.
exp, da ppl like me.
plzz la...ur good in teaching, bt ur poor in sense of humor. plus in communication skill.
too poor.

selamat dtg blog kg.nekmat.

wahhh.
dis kg was so maju erk? wit da commited of penghulu.
after all his determination, n eager..puup! jadilah http://kampongnekmat.blogspot.com/..
thanks abg.syah. so that, our family bonding will last forever.
once we're family, always a family.wah2.
now, tgh fasting. sgt penat okeyh.
wit all da clases, n da lecture..ahhh..dah la kdg2 tak sahur.
btw, yesterday, kitorg buat expriment belah tikus.
wahhhh.mmg best gile.
now, dlm clas s.i..br afta quiz.hahaah. sempat lagi blog.
hheeheh.
later i insert pic okeyh??
cant wait dis 26hb. my bus at 8 o'clock ..
wish dis hari raya will be more meaningful than da past.


me:more insane.
luvs.

31 August.

happy birthday malaysia.

selamat hari jadi ke-51..i'm proud to be malaysian baby.

huhuhu:D

btw, brape kali mau tulis blog neh. bt slalu dikaco ngn bdk2 kt ym aku tuh.huhuu. tak layan kate sombong plak. bengong!

td tgk fs aini..smlm pioneers ader buat cm jumpe2 kt mid. bt sumer bdk2 skema kt skolah dulu. hehehe.

semua pakat nk fly..sorg g aussie la, us la, uk la, mesir la, hhuhu..

aku??fly pegi kuantan.huhuhu. gile jeles.

tgh dgr lagu "i still" dr bsb. waaa...cm very touching dis song. huhu:D

ye. amat jeles bile kwn2 ku nk fly. amat2!

huhuu.

takpe2 blog. one day, aku lak. huhu

hope2 so.

insyaallah.

teori mu lucu.

"Teori Lucu"

Dunia hari ini
Semua mengaku seni
Lebih baik jadi diri sendiri
Negara hari ini
Kurang lelaki kualiti
Jangan salahkan skeptikal mentaliti
Kau apa kurangnya?
Hip tapi sempit
Siapa kata lelaki dan perempuan
Tak bisa menjadi kawan karib?Lucu!

Ada apa dengan Valentine?
Bila ku ada teman-teman
Cita-cita
Masa depan
Kau mungkin fikir ku "in denial"
Atau ku suka yang sejenis
Oh, tak mungkin
Hak ku memilih
Jadi aku solo
Tak bermakna bolos
Memang ku sendiri
Tak bermaksud aku mahu kau punya kekasihLucu!

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btw guys..selamat berpuasa.
huhu:D

ye. sy minta maaf.

dear god...

apapun yg terjadi,
berjalan la tanpa henti,
air mata tertahan,
waktu unt dijatuhkan,
nanti kita kan tahu,
bertapa bijak nya hidup,
sepahit pun apa pun ini.
semoga kepergianmu,
takkan mengubah apapun
semoga mampu ku lawan
kesepianku.

unt bintang sy.

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tiredI'm missing you again, oh no

Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed'
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tiredI'm missing you again oh no

Once again
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste awayI found you, something told me to stayI gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love Hope is hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to youI left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tiredI'm missing you again oh no


sincerely syaza, aku rindu gle kt ko. just aku tak taw nape aku jd cmtuh.seriusly.aku tak taw. n aku mintak maaf gle2 kt ko.n even ko tak dpt accpet, but just aku amat2 happy tyme kwn ngn ko b4.seriusly.hrmmm..bintang...

melawan kesepian.ahh~

aha. dis words ini amat2 btl. tu la. hmm..smlm ayah long n isa dtg umh. dorg otw nk g tgk abg.yie kt klang.singgah skjp. n kebetulan mak msk nasi tomato. act, at 1st tak taw pun dorg nk dtg dr kltn, but nih namenye langkah kanan kot.hahaha.
then ptg tuh azri dtg. n bwk me n nadia g tgk movie.diorg tgk zohan n me n k.june tgk death race. it was a great movie. kene tgk. basicly dis movie u all tgk cm maen bumper car. but da worst is kene mati.hahaha.:D
gle.heheheeh..n now i'm listening to "cinta ini membunuhku"..shit la lagu love2 songs neh. n another on eis by ct.."melawan kesepian"..ahahaah..gle jiwang.but aku admit. kdg2 aku mmg dgr all dis songs. n mule la berangan ke..hahaha..maybe bermimpi d siang hari. ye laa.jgn kate korg tak penah cm aku?hahaha..adoi2. blog, ngn ko je la aku nk ctr ape2 pun.cm ko je la best friend aku. thanks blog.hahaah.

right through me.

yeah. its not easy to make things goes right. maybe after all the struggle i thought, was in vain.n dats moments really make me piss off.haha. its too complicated.after all,i thought i'm gonna be okay with dis stupid fairytale love story, but i was wrong. i'm must be sleeping. n no one shake me to make me up.maybe i was too afraid of waking n see all da lies n pretending in front of me. i was too afraid to face the truth dat i'm not for him.my heart melted becz of u n i put all my belief on him.it must have been good. but it was over now.only da pain mark as scars.he screw up everythng. just like dat.as simple as abc.life like dis.up n down.depend on us how to control it.when i think our previous tyme, it was awesome but its over now. but y ur still find me n pretend nothings happen? hmmm.i believe now dat time of my life will come soon n now i;m still searching for dat magic rainbow dat will make me gave into love and see all da bitterness burn, feel my world start to turn,can hold back thngs dat i was vanished b4, n :) again. thankful, its started to begin. i hv my new haircut, my new fashion, n my new thinking.i'm become better than yesterday. thankgod! n in love chapter, i believe i deserve sum1 more2 better. yeah. new anis.new life.

heh:D

unt ko!

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now is your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
Your taking seven steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do, oh
Oohhhh oooooooooohhh...

sucks abes!

wahhh.
afta bc rifa nye general di ms. got strengh nak tulis neh. gle ar ko rifa.ko amat berani syg!.kagum.hehehe.btw.luahannye:
wahhhhhhhhhh.nape blum ade mr.future?semua tgh sebuk type msg2 kepade boyfren aku hanye la dgr lagu2 bodo. yg kdg2 amat bodo.hehehe.looks stupid la ble tulis neh. but its my blog.so, lantak ku nk ckp ape. g MAMPOS ape org nk ckp. ssh nye nk cr sorg.org laen berpuluh2 pegi dn dtg.kite?adakah disumpah?atau pun dh takdir babe??taknk la smpai ke tua.gle arrr.even aku takde love at 1st sight, tp aku cayer.bende alah tuh exist act. just maybe aku je tak dpt kot.adoi. bkn kate xde org approch, but sumtimes org tuh melebeh2.sumthng yg aku meluat abes nk tgk.adoi. mane la mr.ryte aku neh?.bknye nk perfect pun, bt at least dpt la rs dihargai, being loved,di hormati..ala. ape yg pompuan nk rs la bengong.mmm.adakah malang kepda lelaki?ouh.tdak mungkin beb.rifa,ape nk jadi ngn kite?penat lah single.just nk single n ready to mingle.amcm?gle ar!mmg dh jumpe.bt rs cm tak sesuai je.bkn memilih beb, bt tak kan nk amek je even i noe i cant love him as much he do?gle ar.bapak kesian die.put high hope then sng2 aku ckp,"dear,i nk clash".lagi kesian aku ckp cmtuh drpada aku tolak awl2.its better be frend.nape yg frend nk couple?aku kekok ar kalo mule2 kwn, then couple.gle segan!takde ke org laen i mean sum1 outha there yg mmg tak kenal aku n nk couple?shit! love phatetic girl.waaaa!gle2 n gle!

omg!

oh gosh. terkejut gle.
allan msg me bck through ym.waaaaaaaaaaaa~!
da man i used to love n dream dat he will become my beloved father b4.
da man dat i put high hope to complete my family.
da man dat i used to miss b4.
n da man dat i used to call..dad..n dis is another love story.not me.but mom.
i noe dis is my mom's love.then tyme die visit kitorg dulu, n cam die gv hope kt ktorg.enjoy vacation kt genting n pahg dulu. da 1st vacation yg rs really2 happy n its too perfect time as a family. dunnoe y. then they break. maybe takde jodoh.
then tonite, wat surprise me is he ym me just now. i noe he realize dat i'm mad towards him, but allan, act..i do really miss u. u take care ya.sape yg tak mrh kalo sum1 yg broke their mom's heart, n stay wit her middle of da nyte to calm mom.sape tak marh?but act..allan. we all miss u.seriously.i do!

hatiku.mimpiku.anganku.

hurm. btw, past few days dpt balik balik contact one of my cousin.at 1st mmg seriously tak kenal.n afta looking back n recall when i'm wit my father those days,baru kenal sape die.
huehuhu. then die call me td. hahah. guess wat.aku ckp kedah. i thought aku dh kelu nk ckp kedah, but act terror gak. hehehe. quite surprise when she cal me.

"kami pun dh lame tak pegi umh tok hang, ye ar..dh tak best dah kalo hampa takdak"

"ye, ke? aku ingtkan dh lupa kami."

"takkn nk lupa keluarga sendiri. tak elok ar"

then, die gtw..btw aku nh ramai cousins n family kt kl neh.but tak taw.herm. serious tak taw. rs cm nk jumpe je all my cousins. nk tgk diorg cmne skrg. ye ar, as aku ingt, da last tyme aku jumpe diorg maybe tyme darjah 5 dulu. gile lame.hehehe.
maybe mkn handsome sorg2. ahakz.sape yg rs my cousins, meh la contact me.

heheheh.
rifa, aku tak update lame cz aku dok umh je.holiday di rumah.pe yg best nye.:D

bengong!

heheeh.

dulu=aku bengong!

dulu=bute beb.justice is blind.

dulu lagi=weh. lagi la bodo.

skrg=hehe.dh okay.serious.ya amat!

sindarela.aku.

sindarela.

Perlukah aku menanti dirimu
Dengan dirinya mengagungkan aku
Mestikah aku pergi bersamanya
Dengan dirimu sentiasa ku puja
Pabila hadirmu mengaburi hatiku
Meniti waktu mengisi saat kisah dongengku
Lakaran bahagiamu itu menjanjikan aku
Hanya akan selalu di dalam anganku
Aku, akulah Sindarela
Hatiku diriku anganku mimpiku Cerita hidupku
Akulah Sindarela, Sindarela, Sindarela lala…
Aku, akulah Sindarela
Hatiku diriku anganku mimpiku Cerita hidupku
Akulah Sindarela lala…Sindarela…
Sanggupkah aku hilangkan mimpiku
Apa yang ku perlu antara keinginanku
Adakah aku harus memilihnya
Bila dirimu sentiasa ku puja
Aku, akulah sindarela..lalalal..

heheh.cm fairytale.but ntah. rs cm makin bersemangat!!yeahhh2!!trime kaseh kwn2!!:D

mistik?

btw, just got dis picture td.special thanks to faiz.hahah.(ko amat terror).
mood:saket tekak!
time:lps maghrib
place:home sweet home baby!
visitors: reifly di ats katil.buat hw.cayalah reifly!
huaaaa(menguap jap)..while listening to 'last kiss' by pearl jam..rs nk tulis blog plak.heheh.btw, smlm merupakan hari ya amat menakutkan. ye arr..at da morning, paksumi (which is my uncle)dpt phone call from skolah nadia.at 1st, he wasnt hv any idea wat is going on. dat warden act wanted to speak to ibu, but unfortunately, my mom br je tkar number.then, tak dpt la nk call ibu.then dapt my uncle.n u noe wat. nadia kene histeria.shit.


"cmne leh kene?"

"encek dtg amek nadia.almost 30 pupils kene rasuk"


then..ibu dpt tahu.shit. i'm sure she's faint at 1st moment she got dat news.aha!then my uncle ngn his friend(mr.robot yg terpakse cancelkan appoinment nye bersama mr.mummy at 3o'clock) unt teman die pg amek my sys. at dat tyme, i was at ioi. br afta tgk susuk. serius tak phm ctr tuh.(plzz any1 can tell me wat exactly dat pengarah nk ckp act??)..then trs balik umh. naseb baek at dat tyme tak cm usuall. sng je dpt rapid.then..my uncle trs g amek nadia.trs pegi amek her skolah.around 7 die smpai sane.he saw ramai sgt org kt surau(act i was not there, but ini ctr paste from him) heheh. then straight trs balik kl.hua. he said. cm cuak la gak. but then, afta benti solat. cm cool sket kot. then smpai kl, dgn help from k.elin, g amek air kolah kt masjid besar kt kl tuh.(tmpt harun din dh ttp). then balik umh. omg! 1st tym etgk nadia, i not she wasnt my sys. laen gle muke die.cm letih. she become speechless.tak ckp ape2. then ibu mandikan die ngn air kolah.

"saket..saket..saket kt pusat"

"mandi keyh nadia. jap lagi okay"

then die baring.then panggil ustad.makcik ma pun dtg.(makcik yg bwk van nadia dulu tyme form 1 till 3.cm anak sendiri oi). tyme tuh around 12 sumtng. then ustad n his kwn pun buat lah air tawar.n buat bg nadia cm ader semangat sket. mmg cuak abes tyme tuh. nadia nanges.n mmg kesian. hurm. then afta minum air ustad, semua dh okay.alhamdullilah.
basicly, bkn sumer percayer dis kind og thingy. but kalo u tgk ngn mate u sendiri, then u akn percaye. at 1st, mmg ssh abes nk cayer.but afta i sendiri kene tyme standarde 6 dulu. smpai sekrg cayer n i believe smpai mati. tuh la. kuasa tuhan kan?amat2 kagum!

heheh.full stop bout mistik!heheh. now bout me. i'm dh getting2 better. dh tak ingt kt die.ala. cm org kate..fate kan? sum1 told me b4..
"anis, i'm sure there's sum1 outta there yg tunggu ko pagi dan mlm..siang dan gelap, n maybe die pun tak tahu sape yg die tunggu. but deep down his heart, die tahu. die tunggu pompuan yg percaye dgn hope.even its impossible.but it can be miracle ryte anis?"..uhhh..bencinye ayt neh.
jht la ko..but anyway thanks. kasi semgt kt aku.hehe.herm. esk farid nk jumpe.nak?taknk?nak?taknak?heh.malas mengatasi segalenye.tgk la.
btw, kla. mate neh dh gedik.nantok.pen off~

heavily broken baby.

heavily broken.

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that
I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

shit! n now i'm heavily broken bcz of him.u easily gv me hope n suddenly u crush it.argh! ntah!kalo u dgr dis song, tak taw la u still ingt or not.but trust me.dis song was my sweetest song eva.when u dd8 for me b4. my mistake.i was too soft.n dear.i tak pernah maenkan u.plz.love=stupid.plz.jgn maen perasaan keyh?!